I really love it......

......when work (my 'fun' job especially, training usually) becomes an exercise in self-care.

Earlier this week, I did two workshops and unfortunately at the first one I don't think I learned too much I can 'use' but I did make some notes I want to put somewhere- like notes all over my house- but that's a little excessive and hey, what are blogs for?  (as if I know)

So, the facilitators were talking about how they direct conversation in a particular group and the following questions came up:

"what could have kept you away from group, and why did decide to come anyways?"
"what did you have to overcome to make it to group?"
"why did you come today?"

I think these might be helpful to keep on hand for down-energy points when I am so good at making all kinds of excuses to not do things.  ...hopefully 'making' me do them, which in turn helps to remedy the mood blah, blah, blah.

Strangely, or conversely, I'm pretty sure I may bail on something later today that I've been a little conflicted about.... and I feel pretty okay with that now, I've talked it out with my besties- sent the organizers a message waiting for a reply, etc etc.  In one of the other working training series I have participated in, the facilitator talked about self-worth and how one client of his came to 'you keep your commitments or you re-negotiate'.  I think I've re-negotiated- enough that it won't send me to the bad place in any case.  And I anticipate receiving one more piece of validation before the day is through.......

I also wrote down a comment from the Q and A:

"we don't have the confidence that we'll be listened to with respect"

That resonated too.

In other news, fab yoga class and hangs this morning- its pretty miserable outside, great day for a nest.

And then April......

1.  Put the awesome class to bed, I miss it and them.
2.  Chased the sun for a day, only to be eluded by it.
3.  Resolved 24 years of remorse/regret
4.  Went to a (history) conference, wasn't the odd one out on my panel- and we rocked it- yay cohesion!
5.  Went to Roller Derby- not my thing.
6.  Fell in love with the City of Trees all over again.
7.  Reconnected with a friend, who is famous and fabulous.
8.  A week seemed to pass in an hour.
9.  Got an extra day
10.  Was successfully talked back to in French more than English.
11.  Walked my feet off
12.  Fell in love a little with a romanticized version of the revolution
13.  Oh and polished off two killer book reviews while I was at it.
14.  Found my future curatorial job, in my dream hood.
15.  Was screwed in Paris- thrice.
16.  See March.
17.  oh!  ate the most vial thing, ever, ever....ugh.... so not okay....ugh.... it still haunts me....
18.  Crazyhorse, Paris, France.
19.  Sightseeing = climbing things.
20.  Sealed our fate.
21.  Charmed the snake librarians.
22.  Fought.  Didn't even care.

Remember March......I hope I do.......

I need to catch up on March, and April.... and talk about a workshop i went to yesterday- and think of 11 other things worth mentioning..... I'm sure I got something somewhere.... in the meantime- MARCH!

1.  Did a relatively awesome radio bit for IWD
2.  Finished interviews, for real this time......I think......
3.  Backed down from some action, but had a rad night with two great people.
4.  Cried a bit, missing the good ol days.
5.  Started learning how to eat...... its a work in progress......
6.  "Do I really want to die on this hill?"
7.  Reconnected with a great old friend.
8.  Started to thaw out.
9.  Survived 'survivor farm' and planned for the apocalypse.
10.  Had a first for the first time in a long time (and more since then...... but more about that later......)
11.  Helped a friend celebrate a big day
12.  Gave a pretty wicked talk for IWD (and two weeks)

More of the same from other months as well, teaching continued charming as did more regular hangouts- I'm pretty happy with this list given the 'not so fresh' memory......see you soon I'm sure.......