Ouch.

Okay, so I went on a trip a year ago (to give a talk)- and it was incredible.  It was an amazing experience.  And remains to be one (I keep telling myself that through the sting). 

So, as you may know, I teach a class and I was looking something up today re. my trip because I thought it might be interesting to talk about in class- it also remains to be so (see bracket above). 

On the website, I see the poster of the speaker who went up this year, so in a self-indulgent glory moment I decided to go look at my poster- and think about what a great time I had (). 

I'm not there (and we're talking years of thorough archiving and updating people)- the only record of me being there is on my school's website.  Ouch. 

I just tried to double check via the wayback machine, but it doesn't go back that recently.... not wayback enough I guess.....

So I should/could e-mail the place and be like "hey, did you guys decide to disassociate yourselves with me?" but a) I'm chicken b) my feelings are hurt and though it could be all for naught I think it actually is and I'm going to continue on as usual so this is just a tiny hiccup and c) may be there is a 'good reason'..... may be even one that doesn't deserve a '. 

Here's what I think it is: 
I had some pretty strong differing opinions than the director there, and I thought we had agreed to disagree/dialogue and still had a lot of good talks (I thought)- but it looks like I've been erased entirely, me and my disagreement were never there.  Its too bad, and unfortunately the second time in the past year that I've had a pretty good conversation with someone face to face about the ways we disagree, and then seen following up from it later denouncing that the coversation never happened.  I don't know what to do with that? 

I started writing this with the intent of keep on keepin' on.  I guess that'll do for now.